I was at a funeral yesterday and I had some odd thoughts that won't go away. Here they are...if four years ago I was an active participant in my life. And today I am an active observer in my life because I am tired, fatigued, nauseous, and in pain most hours of the day. What will I be like in 4 more years...8 more years...Will I be like Mr. McCall...most likely not. He was 99 years old and still driving. A couple of weeks ago he was on his roof cleaning it. I cannot even walk one block without pain. What will my life be like in four years when I am only 41 years old..................