hPTH sucks

It's 2am and sleep eludes me yet again. I wish I could do the dishes or laundry to help Roy out but the bone pain is really bad tonight. I logged on to rant about how bad I feel but maybe I just need to say how lucky I am to have Roy.
I get so mad because I explain what is wrong with me a thousand times and some people just don't get it. Like someone in my family saying oh its not your thyriod that is making you sick it something else... really where have they been!!!!!!!!

Good thing I am a hoarder

Good thing I am a hoarder. I stash Calcium EVERYWHERE, I even hide them when I am in the hospital. Yesterday sucked. I was at work and bam I hit the proverbial wall...I crashed (calcium dropped). I hate doing that in public every one looks at you with pity in their eyes. I don't want pity I want to be better. I want to not need to hide calcium of all things in strange places. I want to sleep alllll night without pain, I want to remember without this brain fog, I want to not need to explain what hpt is to everyone EVEN DOCTORS. I want to be the mom and wife I was three years ago. I want my life back!