Good thing I am a hoarder

Good thing I am a hoarder. I stash Calcium EVERYWHERE, I even hide them when I am in the hospital. Yesterday sucked. I was at work and bam I hit the proverbial wall...I crashed (calcium dropped). I hate doing that in public every one looks at you with pity in their eyes. I don't want pity I want to be better. I want to not need to hide calcium of all things in strange places. I want to sleep alllll night without pain, I want to remember without this brain fog, I want to not need to explain what hpt is to everyone EVEN DOCTORS. I want to be the mom and wife I was three years ago. I want my life back!