Up AGAIN

Ok so I have a meeting at 0730...it is 0115.wish I could sleep, everyone else in the house is but not me. I am sure to be a bundle of joy in 6 hours. I should hear from the NIH by Friday on when the new date for the PTH injections can start. I am so ready for this new drug to feel better and maybe sleep again.
Enough about that. So I did not get to start running again so the half marothan with my sister this spring is out. So new plan is to g and walk the 5K and cheer her on...maybe she will wear the ' hpt sucks' shirt. I will strive to be able to run it next year if I start the medication this summer it should be possible to run next spring.
I am thankful for my job(s) atleast they make me feel productive.

WHY, WHY, WHY!

Why can I not have one night to be really tired, get ready for bed, and GO to SLEEP? Why must I be exhausted, lying in bed hurting too bad to sleep only to then take pain meds to get rid of the pain but keep me up! this sucks. Sleep...really...is it that hard.

So for the NIH update...the doctor is signed up and approved for the study. Know we are waiting for the "final, final" nod from the IRB. Then they will start the drug in about 6 months. Yeah 1 year late. thank god my kidney's have made it this far. I pray that the new shots work as well as everyone says or ya'll may need to come and scrap me up off the floor from the fetal position.

I am glad I can come here and dump all my negative crappy feelings on the WWW then get back to life after my good cry and poor me attitude is over.
Thanks for listening to my bitch.